you see that they're beautiful?

i am constantly this summer feeling like a smaller and smaller person. smaller and quieter and softer: less hopeful. i am not attracted to anyone right now - i am not sexually driven, i am more or less sexually afraid. i went to see wall-e tonight with britney and my family, and that just made me feel smaller and more afraid: even if i wanted to make a difference, i am only one person, can one person with no control make that difference? you would have to become a big person to make that difference, wouldn't you? could you?

i also have trouble believing that i am actually going back to halifax again, where i atleast know that something fun will happen from time to time. thais came home today, and apparently her life is completely different yet i had no idea. sus is still in the wilderness. where are my friends! what is going on!

it was like a hurricane of love and suddenly! stop.